To breathe again

Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe…

I didn’t really know if I should post about this or not, but in case somebody out there actually reads my posts, I figured I should give some kind of explanation, but I also think it would be nice to some day look back and see why I was suddenly all quiet for an entire month.

I haven’t stopped reading as you would know, if you follow my instagram account, and I still scribble down notes when I read, but for some reason this past month has been almost too much for me. I felt like I was drowning in study work and my work as a teacher. I felt like I was not able to breathe properly – like my chest was too tight – and I have had a hard time concentrating. This week, I have finally stopped grinding my teeth in my sleep and am now working on relaxing my shoulders to avoid tension headaches. I always break around the autumn holidays. Mostly I just stop doing my homework, sometimes I skip school for a week or two and then everything’s fine.

This year, though, it hit me a little earlier than usual and a little harder. I am under no impression that I have to put up posts on my blog, but the mere want is knocking my world out of focus. At the same time, I don’t think I have wanted to do well in any of my studies as much as I want to right now, which evidently puts me under some kind of pressure – whether I want to or not. So I have been quiet for some time; putting all my strength into my work and my studies.

But as I mentioned, I haven’t stopped reading or taking notes. I just need to work on making the notes actual posts I can put up here. In my own time of course. But that is life. One step at a time. We can never do more than we can do, and right now I just can’t do as much as I’d like to. So I read a lot. I read without analysing. I read without an end goal. I read merely for the pleasure of reading itself. And I think that sometimes that is the only way to read.

However, I am currently working on a post about Leoniderne, the first book in the sci-fi series Spektrum (Spectrum) by Nanna Foss and I do so look forward to sharing it with you!